me and my infinite amount of doubts

I've made up my mind on something and i hope i'll have the appropriate support from the appropriate people

no i'm not going for lipo-suction or anything like that (although i want to) gonna touch on that later

youde said i post "shitty pictures" up on my blog... then i realise he was right... sorry that i own a shitty face not forgetting a shitty attitude to match. whee

Everybody Love Everybody - Jackie Moon, Will Farrell's character on Semi-Pro(Best comedy ever)

this picture is truly a result of showing my beautiful coloured nails. i hardly have nice painted nails 'cos whenever i have my nails done it will be destroyed like within one day. they don't label me as the "Destroyer" for nothing

endure as shitloads of shitty pictures coming your way

this is a view of what's outside my windows in my room

and this is a zoom-in picture of the photo above, which indicates the spot i'm trying to get to and nua myself to death (hopefully). after monday's paper i will try to get myself up there and reeeeelax

yesterday - gladys's birthday dinner after COS paper

babybaby

shake it- like a polaroid picture(actually you're not supposed to)

Today- woke up and walked to PRATAHOUSE*screams* to meet my dearest Carol... who'll be leaving to New Zealand later this evening

damn it. Yashi's already left for melbourne two nights before ( one person less to confide to )

which lefts with... nobody... 'cos mer's probably busy... *stabs heart*

had a long good chat with her. talking about studying overseas. as far as i know i think studying overseas would be good for me

1) less distractions (which means i can finally use my brain on useful things namely STUDYING instead of thinking of useless thrash that's not worth my constant worryings)

2) unleash my fullest potential (i've always been lazy by nature. i've never really did anything with my full ability, and i don't know til now what things i'm good at and stuff [most likely it's still nothing] )

3) i dislike my current course- perhaps i've never mention this before 'cos this whole time i've been trying to persuade myself to like what i'm doing but i'm not... but i did several times to my mother who is very supportive of what i'd like or want to do. she says its okay to change course if i like, but going overseas to study is better, less time required. she's supportive of this too,but my father on the other hand, although the note he wrote behind my birthday angpau reads " we'll always support what you want to do" , i doubt he would for this case. he'll praise singapore's education system every now and then... i mean what's good about it? when you waste 3 years doing what you don't like?

so i'll probably have a talk with my dad tonight. hopefully he'll really listen to me instead of the usual "ya ya *looks at another direction* " he'd not do that if i were my brothers though............

not as if i'm not used to be treated differently. oh well, i do it to myself.