Insomaniac (ll) / Goodbye ahlian Hello, decent

going to be about a month since i last blogged... well it's like nobody asked me to update so i didn't... and yes finally i dyed my hair to a much much much darker colour. well everybody has different opinions and some said they preferred my previous hair colour but most said this is much better (especially my parents) and now a couple of people suggest that i rebond my hair -_- hmmmm? and yeah the main reason of the "transformation" is due to the fact that 100 % of the people who see me with the previous hair colour, has negative first impression of me, namely being an AHLIAN. oh god, define AHLIAN. which part of me looks like one? and some freaks even mentioned, after i dyed my hair, that even if the hair colour changed, the AHLIAN face is still there. really turned off...

okay and recently, yes, i played back MAPLE. i quit playing the game like 2 years back, and decided to play back a month back due to the fact that i've got nothing else to do that entertains me.. and it seems like now after playing back, i can't have enough sleep, i tend to sleep in odd hours like 3 or 4 or even later even on a school day's night. and just last week, 4/5 of the schooldays, i was late. my temper became very very bad and it somehow affects the friendship between me and some friends. sorry :(

yeah, i know i've said this in almost every entry in my blog : many things happened.
yeah, many.
when i say many, i meant many as in m-a-n-y.
played back maple, knew a few new friends
lost one.
but it's like now, many people knows what's going on, and i'm like a fool unaware of what's happening. yeah maybe now people might have a bad impression of me treating people badly
yeah and i must admit that i do, but i'm just trying not to hurt anybody. and yes i'm aware that by doing all the things i did, it's hurting all the same. or maybe even more. but as all of you guys know, i'm super sensitive and i can't control my temper/emotions/feelings. most of the time my anger took control and i took everything seriously. i realise that whenever i face a problem or feel stressed i will feel worked up over a minor problem and flare at everyone i see. and i tend to run away from the problem instead of solving it. hmmmm.

sorry to you. i appreciate everything you done for me.
sorry to my three bffs in class for showing my not-so-rare attitude

thanks bro for letting me scream at you on the phone.
thanks joe! for always being there

and now i'm unable to sleep.

stupid active mind. STOP THINKING

okay, on a lighter note
4 people who i dearly treasure came back from oversea studies for holidays!
-Carol from Newzealand, going back next week :(
-Yashi from Melbourne, going back next week as well:(
-big brother from Canada, staying for good :) that means access to his toilet is no longer available :(
-Dawn from Bristol, staying for good as well :)

oh and did i mention that i participated in the stupid 3rd year anniversary maplestory event.
where i've got to wear some freakass yellow vest, along with two of my friends running around suntec city in my goddamned dress, look all sweaty and red, go up to the damn stage and cut the damn birthday cake. the pictures better not be uploaded in the freaking website!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EMCEE: so, yellow team, do you think your team will win?
yx: yes, because we have our secret weapon *points to his right*
EMCEE *points f***ing microphone towards me* : why did he say that your the team's "secret weapon" ?
me: HOW I KNOW AH?!

yes, there goes my reputation
another factor contributing to my list of "Why my life is not worth living"

3 hours more before i prepare to go to school


more pictures soon.

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