it's a break up because it's broken

can't sleep as usual, thanks to some unappreciative jerk with that ego of his ten times the size of my oversized mouth. man, he is not of the male species at all, knowing that he actually inflict pain on his girlfriend (well ex for now) for something so juvinile and downright stupid. his brain and thoughts are no better than a six year old, no joke. but the mystery here is why am i bothering or even cling myself to thinking of all these useless trash? i must let go. i must. it's just not worth it. he's a damn jerk. i deserve better. i will not regret. oh. and guess what? after he slapped me he have the bloody cheek to say he doesn't regret, ego-moment huh? i will try my best to do whatever i can to lose love and interest for him. one year and several months tolerating this shit. i totally deserve an award for endurance or something or no justice is being done upon me. i must regain confidence. i have to be back to my normal fun-loving self (minus the bad attitude) i have to. i know there are many people out there caring for me. i will not disappoint them, and most importantly not to disappoint myself. i will try hard not to have all his actions just to spite me bother me. i will pretend not to give a damn. if he choose to move on, so be it. but i will certainly feel sorry for the girl. i will not lose to him. at least like carol said, i can find a guy who has a stronger command of english anytime. (inside joke) i will need everyone's support. he has the cheek to slap me for something which is partially his fault. i don't deserve this. i don't